unfortunate..

Im not sure why i ever think people will change.. i convince myself that maybe just maybe they will wake up a new person and not be an utter cock anymore.. think i will be waiting awhile for this one to change. My worst bad habbit is falling in love. I fall in love far to easlily and apparently always with the wrong people. I am greatly starting to question if its me.. if im the bad person if i make people want to hurt me. do i have "treat me like shit" written across my head?.. they havnt all been bad i suppose.. actually not at all.. when i think about it. it is me that fucks it up.. fancy that
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"Why we stick our COCKS in other people"

Disser what?

Help help help.. final year, dissertation. i feel thick as shit. but i know it its all in my head. the layout of it all just overwhelms me. draft in tomorrow hopefully a tutor will take pitty on me and help me! ive been crying alot the last few days im not sure why.. i think im worried about disapointing people. failing uni.. i want to stay in london and do a counselling and psycology course but.. if im struggleing with this will it get easier?  i cangt controle my anger anymore.. i want to scream all the time. my older sister might be moving here which i am sooo looking forward too! i need somebody who understands me here. its not that the people around me dont. i feel selfish being down when everybody has there own stuff to worry about..

Bekki Bracken