unfortunate..

Im not sure why i ever think people will change.. i convince myself that maybe just maybe they will wake up a new person and not be an utter cock anymore.. think i will be waiting awhile for this one to change. My worst bad habbit is falling in love. I fall in love far to easlily and apparently always with the wrong people. I am greatly starting to question if its me.. if im the bad person if i make people want to hurt me. do i have "treat me like shit" written across my head?.. they havnt all been bad i suppose.. actually not at all.. when i think about it. it is me that fucks it up.. fancy that
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"Why we stick our COCKS in other people"

Disser what?

Help help help.. final year, dissertation. i feel thick as shit. but i know it its all in my head. the layout of it all just overwhelms me. draft in tomorrow hopefully a tutor will take pitty on me and help me! ive been crying alot the last few days im not sure why.. i think im worried about disapointing people. failing uni.. i want to stay in london and do a counselling and psycology course but.. if im struggleing with this will it get easier?  i cangt controle my anger anymore.. i want to scream all the time. my older sister might be moving here which i am sooo looking forward too! i need somebody who understands me here. its not that the people around me dont. i feel selfish being down when everybody has there own stuff to worry about..

Bekki Bracken

Cant sleep..

So this lack of sleep is becoming a regular occourance it doesnt bother me so much apart from then i decide to be tired during the day and sleep  until the night time its a vicious circle. Everything is getting me down at the moment i feel like i dont even know ere to start. I miss home too much im not clever enough for uni.. I study Fine art, the painting aspect i love i have a great passion for but the accademic side i literally dont know were to begin its all there in my head but pen to paper it just doesnt come out. I did a bad thing and i hurt someone this still gets to me, why do we do thay? hurt the people we care for most. weird thing is they forgave me. Put the shoe on the other foot and i wouldnt have been able to do the same. For the last few months ive had an overwhelming feeling of failure that just seems stuck. i shake it off for brief moments..  

"Women who aim to be equal with men lack ambition"

unitary authority of ersatz

Black and Blue But I still Love you